By Jenny Glazebrook
Sometimes we need to remind ourselves why we write. It's easy to lose the integrity of the gift we have been given as the world shouts that we need to market, to compete, to sell, to make money, to be recognised. Well, I'm working on my tax for last financial year and I can tell you I'm certainly not meeting the world's criteria.
These last few weeks I've needed God to remind me why I write and so today I am sharing with you the heart of my writing and just one of the stories behind the heart. It's a story I shared in my newsletter a few months back.
If you're struggling with your writing, I would encourage you to ask yourself these same questions and I'd love you to share your answers, too.
What do I write?
I write stories which carry my characters from this broken world into a place of hope and healing through Christ.
Why do I insist on writing God’s hope and healing into my stories?
Because I know that my redeemer lives!
We have a God who redeems. Not just that one amazing, exceptional time on the cross, but every day. If we look for His hand we will find it. I want others to see and experience God’s spiritual healing at work in their lives, every day as they come to know and love Him more.
How do we see God’s hand?
There are so many ways. If we look for Him, we will find Him in ways we could never have imagined. And now I’ll share just one of my personal experiences; a story behind my writing.
|The plaque at Jon's grave|
Jon was no ordinary young man. He had a heart for God, an intimate knowledge of the Bible and a lovable personality. When Jon laughed, you couldn’t help laughing with him.
|Photo of Jon's baptism at age 14|
Jon became a gifted preacher and speaker. The day before his 21st birthday he was camping with friends, ready for his party the next day. Before the group went to their tents and sleeping bags for the night, Jon led a devotion for the young people there, sharing from James, encouraging them to live each day for God. He told them, ‘None of us know we’ll be here tomorrow.’
Early that morning his best mates who shared the tent with him reported that he made a few choking sounds in his sleep and died. They tried to bring him back to no avail.
When I heard the news, I just ran, trying to escape the reality, screaming out ‘No, no, no!’ as if that could change the devastating truth. I felt like I couldn’t breathe, like I shouldn’t, because Jon no longer breathed. My heart broke that day.
The cause was never found. It was put down to a kind of adult cot death. It didn't make sense to me. Jon was always so strong and healthy.
We all remembered Jon once telling us, ‘If I die, I don’t want you to be sad. I want you to party, because I’ll be partying in heaven!’
One of his favourite sayings, was ‘Keep your eyes on the Lord and we’re sure to meet again.’ He finished every letter to me with that line.
But I couldn’t party at his death. Others did, as they shared the food prepared for his 21st birthday party. I was broken. How could the sun shine again without this precious friend living in the world? How could I trust a God who had taken Jon away? Why hadn't God taken me instead? Jon had so many gifts and touched so many lives, ... but me? I was shy, I had health issues, I didn't even want to be on earth.
It was so wrong. So disrespectful. Didn’t they understand who we had lost, whose body was lying lifeless in that coffin? I couldn’t bear the thought of them dumping dirt on top of what remained of the Jon I had come to know and love. Supposedly Jon was partying in heaven, but I couldn’t feel that, couldn’t see it or comprehend it in my grief.
|Rob, one of God's greatest gifts to me|
He provided a young man to be a friend and spiritual support through my grief and that man was
|My children; one of God's great blessings|
Rob, now my husband. He provided a brother in law with the same birth date as Jon so that I have a living person to celebrate on that day.
And one of my precious daughters was born within a few days of Jon’s birthday.
But that day a few months ago God revealed the power of His healing in a complete way I could never have imagined and that only He could have done.
For the first time since Jon died, I happened to drive past the cemetery where he was buried. And I felt a need to go in. I was hesitant. I had an appointment to go to in an hour, and what if memories overwhelmed me? What if the sting of death broke my heart again? Yet I was drawn in.
I parked my car and allowed instinct to lead me in the right direction. My heart was jarred by the sight of a backhoe parked nearby. Waiting to fill in another grave. I averted my eyes and began to search the plaques for Jon’s name. I found the grave of my brother’s friend, killed at 16 in a car accident, and knew I was close. But there were so many graves.
|The cemetery where Jon was buried|
His tone was warm and friendly but respectful. ‘Are you looking for someone?’
I nodded. ‘Yes, my friend. He was buried here 20 years ago.’
He pulled out his phone. ‘What’s the name? I can ring the office and find out where he is.’
Where he is? It felt wrong to be speaking in the present tense. I knew Jon wasn’t here anymore.
I told him Jon's full name and date of birth and death, carved into my heart and mind forever.
The backhoe driver gave me the row and number of the grave, then with compassion and sensitivity, led me there himself. I thanked him and he quietly walked away.
And as I looked at that plaque, there was nothing there. Jon was not there. The raw, broken pain in my heart was no longer there. All the questions about why God took Jon and not me were gone. I knew deep within the purpose God has for me and the reason He kept me on earth. That shy, broken young girl is now a woman who speaks for God, writes for God, shares His hope and purpose.
I looked up at the sky, the trees, into the heavens, and the only one there with me in that moment was God. In the breeze, the beauty of creation, only God was there. My redeemer. Jon’s redeemer.
I came to the cemetery to find Jon and all I found was God.
He was alive, healing me, redeeming, using a backhoe driver all these years later to lead me to the place where healing and redemption were confirmed.
|Copyright Jerusalem Prayer Team|
That is why I write the stories I do. I have the inspiration of a God who writes the stories of healing and redemption in our lives in ways we can’t even begin to imagine.
May you know the power and reality of His hope and his healing hand upon you today!
I'd love you to share why you write in the comments below.
Jenny Glazebrook lives in the country town of Gundagai with her husband, Rob and 4 children along with many pets. She is the published author of 7 novels, 1 traditionally published, and 6 self published. She writes because words burn within her. She is an experienced inspirational speaker and loves to encourage others to walk closer with God and hear His voice each day. Jenny’s website is: www.jennyglazebrook.com